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There are many who say, “Who will show us some good? Lift up the light of your face upon us, O Lord !”

You have put more joy in my heart than they have when their grain and wine abound.

In peace I will both lie down and sleep; for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety. (Psalm 4:6-8 ESV)

My plans:

If there was any major fork in the road of my lifetime, now would be that point. Probably the biggest I’ve dealt with so far. 

So what’s my status right now? Single. Living at home. No job. In the middle of nowhere. Doing nothing. Needless to say, this is probably the last place I want to be, and I’m seriously desperate to get out and start being independent. Part of me writing this post is to hold on to my sanity as I wait for applications that are taking forever. Moving on. 

Here are my plans. Keep in mind, I’ve been absolutely all over the place for the past months regarding different directions. As I gradually get more discontent with where I am right now, my standards change and I become more open to things I never would have considered before. Here’s a glimpse into the ever changing potential paths on my plate right now. 

1) Claims Adjuster, Oxnard. A good friend who I met my first semester in Korea recently moved to Santa Barbara with his wife, and he works as a Property Claims Adjuster in the area. Basically, this job is assessing damage to property and coordinating funds allocated to reconstruction. It’s a fun, leadership type role that involves working outside the office (my friend tells me that he gets work done on the beach) and meeting interesting people. Plan is that I’d work here for a few years, then take some sort of graduate school, likely leaning towards something online or a marketable AS. 


+Great pay in a very nice area doing something fun. Can pursue interests outside of school. Good position to build up experience.  

-Quite far from many of my friends. I am not familiar with the area at all, and wouldn’t know if I’d be able to find a decent community. Cost of living is high.  

2) Go back to Korea. Teach English or SATs for a year, then apply to graduate school. 

+New Philadelphia. Money.

-Not building up relevant career experience unless I have time to volunteer or teach at a North Korean school. I don’t particularly like living in Korea for long periods of time. 

3) Go to the Philippines. Take a job in Healthcare Administration or Urban Planning, which I think would be more accessible because I’m foreign educated. Apply for graduate school after a few years with strong experience.

+Most relevant path to where I want to go. Combines both international development with markable skills and experience, the best possible combination of my interests.

-Would likely live in metro Manila. Paid $500 a month… cost of living is low but that amount scares me.  

So there you have it. Bottom line is that I have no idea what I’m doing or where I’m going, but anything is pretty much preferable to where I am now. There is much negative emotion directed about how I got here, and it’s really hard not to vent. 

I’ve been resenting what was good all this time…

But Jesus called them to him and said, “You know that the rulers of the Gentiles lord it over them, and their great ones exercise authority over them. It shall not be so among you. But whoever would be great among you must be your servant, and whoever would be first among you must be your slave, even as the Son of Man came not to be served but to serve, and to give his life as a ransom for many.”

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